Different sides of G...

Correspondence

2010-05-08T20:53:00.001+08:00

Letters, emails, instant messages, texts, post, shout outs, banners, post its, reminders, tags, verbal, written or maybe even hand gestures. All of these are ways on how to relay some thought/ idea that you may want to share to others. You feel strongly about it so you have to say it.

In this day and age, depending on what technology is readily available we learn to adapt. Using websites like Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr, Plurk and many other sites we can express our thoughts and POVs. Forget the age all handwritten letters and how can we forget the MESSAGE IN THE BOTTLE scene! We can now readily speak our mind up in the CLOUD (internet space) and can easily reach millions in seconds.

But SPEED is only one part of the process of conversation. If you look at it in the bigger picture it is actually a minute part of it. We tend to forget that it is the connection that we are building that is more important. That connection that overlaps all form of communication! Whether you speak with your voice, Write your heart out or dance with the rhythm of the world that connection you build with the other is what matters.

We ACT, before we FEEL. That maybe one of the major flaws of the human race. We take ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS to literally. Letting go the other aspect of really ACTING! We act because we feel like doing it, we ACT so we can FEEL it, and we ACT so that the other can actually FEEL us. We don’t just ACT and say there I did it! That lost of sensation/ feeling can actually lead us to a highly mechanized society. A modern society where information is very important and HUMANITY is but a medium of relaying information.

I admit that I’m one of those people. A highly technology reliant being. I sometimes forget to FEEL to actually reach out and to actually communicate with others. Eventually creating a barricade between the inner you and the outside.

so START CONVERSING and COMMUNICATING PROPERLY. It will be a start that will spark your life in the right path!

Talk too you soon!

-G

Goodnight.. i felt tired YEAY!

2010-05-06T23:31:00.002+08:00

[Your setting again my heart in motion!

I'm on the edge of my emotion!

I only said it because I mean it!

I only mean it because it is true!

Whenever I'm without you!]

Never simple, never easy!

Everything is Coincidental but always Exceptional!

2010-05-02T18:59:00.005+08:00

** I don't know better**

Opportunity is a tricky thing. It always is coincidental or unprecedented but always exceptional! Always a companion of uncertainty and fear. We are faced with life changing situations almost everyday. A call from work, a proposal from another company, an email or even a simple "hey have you heard..." Ignoring most of them will be our initial response until the moment of "SAYANG". One of the frequent lines Filipinos are fond off including "Mamaya na", "Palibre", and others...

The road less travelled! A line that best describes what we don't do. We set goals that we strive so hard to accomplish that we forego the things that we really should be aiming for. We aim for the stars and yet we haven't even seen the moon! We try so hard to shout that we forget the sounds of our own voice. Last thing you know you achieved everything you wished for yet you still feel incomplete and unsatisfied.

Satisfaction is really the culmination of one's life here on earth! FIND IT and you can really say that you lived a life worth living. We wake up each day looking for that satisfaction, for that one thing that can truly make us HAPPY. Then again, the human race is and always was the epitome of the "Insatiable Nature". A description that both scientist and theologist both agree to be true! We always strive to improve, create goals that will exceed others, and do things that can overcome boundaries. We create, we nurture and we adapt. In the end, a constant cycle of change and dynamism.

We end up trying to live in a world where chaos/change is in charge and order/balance act like a beautiful consequence. Resulting to "Ok na yan!", "buti nga meron pa eh!", "hay sa wakas! tapos na" and other phrases that signify "fake satisfaction" --> Contentment without control.

Our own Freedom that masks our own chains within a culture that hinders us from experiencing SATISFACTION. We plan for the future but forget to ACT NOW! We dream yet we live out a nightmare. Ignoring everything and acknowledging nothing.

Why not start being happy today and just LIVE? :D We may never find the satisfaction we are looking for but at least we live a life where in we can say "I WAS HAPPY!" and not a life of "I WISH I WAS HAPPY?"

IKAW MASAYA KA BA?

-G

And so i write again!

2009-12-09T23:29:00.002+08:00

i walk now with my head up high!

Never afraid always excited.

I wish for something great

and the world gave me something better.

It gave me, ME.

Now I'm thankful,

I'm happy,

yet I can't be contented.

I'm insatiable and i'm overflowing,

I still look back, I still remember.

You who is a big part, a big change,

I will never forget but will never regret.

I'm ME and I'm happy and always thankful!

changes are my friend and they always change for the better.

I never know what will happen

BUT I know that it is what I want and what I need.

i now see me and not everybody else,

It is me who needs me,

not me needing anybody else.

I'm one and I'm with everyone.

Thank you.

I fell…

2008-04-15T21:05:00.001+08:00

Falling down never felt so good,

Bouncing up and down,

Throwing your weight across the room,

I felt the surge of happines...

Jumping sideways,

Falling yet standing up in speed,

Soaring through the sky,

I felt gravity taking me back...

Movements-- so free,

Restrain my fear,

Make me as fluid as possible

Let me Go...

I was flying,

I was FALLING

I was there

yet I was nowhere.

happiness

2008-03-27T23:46:00.001+08:00

Senses

2008-03-26T00:10:00.001+08:00

Walk ,Run, Stride, Glide, Stumble, Crawl
and play with the shadows...
See, Look, Watch, Peep, Glance, Wink
and let beauty amaze you...

Try.

Hold, Mold, Shake, Touch, Reach, Slap
and create fantasies you've yet to realize...
Smell, Sniff, Sneeze, Delight, Savor
the aroma of the breeze...

TRy..

Listen. Hear, Cherish
the dancing melodies of Life
Wish, Think, Dream, Hope, Aspire, Yearn
for a future hiding beneath me...

TRY...

Ilocos

2008-03-25T09:00:00.001+08:00

We went to Ilocos Sur and Norte during the Holy Week!!
Stayed there for about 3 days, made the most out of it!

Visita Iglesia (Day 2)
Visited 9 churches in the following order:
1. THE SHRINE OF SANTO CRISTO MILAGROSO (SInait, ilocos Sur)
2. Cabugao Church
3. Sacred Heart Convent "Church name unknown"
4. THE CHURCH OF ST. WILLIAM THE HERMIT (Masingal, Ilocos Sur)
5. Sto. Domingo
6. San Il De Fonso
7. THE SHRINE OF NUESTRA SEÑORA DE LA CARIDAD aka. St. Augustine Church (Bantay, Ilocos Sur)
8. SIMBAAN A BASSIT (vigan, Ilocos Sur)
9. St. Paul's Metropolitan Cathedral (Vigan, Ilocos Sur)

Others: (Day 1 & Day 3)
1. Laoag Church (Laoag, Ilocos Norte)
2. Marcos Museum and Mausoleum (Batac, Ilocos Norte)
3. St. William's Cathedral and Sinking Bell Tower (Laoag city, Ilocos Norte)
4. Museo Ilocos Norte (Laoag, Ilocos Norte)
5. Bantay Bell (Bantay, Ilocos Sur)
6. Pug-Os Beach (Cabugao, Ilocos Sur)
7. Plaza Salcedo (Vigan, Ilocos Sur)
8. Plaza Burgos (Vigan, Ilocos Sur)
9. Heritage Village [Mestizo District] (Vigan, Ilocos Sur)
10. Crisologo Museum (Vigan, Ilocos Sur)
11. Archbihop's Palace (Vigan, Ilocos Sur)
12. Leona Florentino house and Statue

FOOD:
1. Empanada & Empanadita (with egg, langgonisa and …)
2. Okoy- (Shrimp patty)
3. Random street food
4. MCdo (Hahaha)
5. Shakeys (hahaha)
6. Tribecca Coffee Shop
7. Dirty Ice Cream
8. Bonfire cooking at Pug- Os Beach (Marshmallow, Hotdogs, & …)
9. Fresh Cabugao Seaweeds!!! (yum yum yum)
10. Bagnet (like crispy pata)
11. Grilled fresh Bangus bought in Plaza Salcedo (yum yum yum)
12. Calderetang Kambing!!!
13. Etc…

These are all the places we visited in our trip to Ilocos Sur, side tripping to Ilocos Norte.
We stayed at the AMYTONY BEACH RESORT in Cabugao, Ilocos Sur which was in front of the Pug- Os White Sand Beach.
The beach was great, food was excellent, and the place was beautiful!!!

Relaxing, peaceful, a break I needed!!! Thank you ilocos!!!!

Hover…

2008-03-24T20:45:00.001+08:00

I'm lost
black is my color
yet I'm bright as the moon...
I sparkle yet i'm dim.

I see flames
red is the color of my heart
yet the sea feels me...
I flow in never ending serenity.

I jump
Green is my color
yet the sands of time shine like Gold...
I whisp into forever.

I'm your color
I'm yours
I'm...

Linger

2008-03-17T23:25:00.002+08:00

To dwell into the past is a PAIN I go through…
leaving in this place just makes it even harder…
I long for a day that I will step out…
Hold out my fear and let me be free..

Sorrow may have the tears I hide…
but
I am the fountain where it flows…
I hold the stone that ripples though the surface…
the leaves that tear through the breeze…

Let me sing my heart song…
like penguins do in the north…
whales' that hum..
birds' that chirp…

Let my music reach you that you may hear..
The thug and thump of my heart…
Let my rage flow out that it hurts to read…
Again Thank You!!

GoodBye!!!

hate

2008-03-17T22:47:00.001+08:00

If you can't understand…
Just say it!
If you don't want to listen
then just don't…

I study for a reason..
it's because I want to get out!!
to move out of your shadow…
to leave this place!!!

Harsh as it sounds..
you are…..
a PAIN!!!
Thank you…

GOODBYE!!!!

SLEEP

2008-03-16T02:37:00.001+08:00

Sleep has eluded me for the nth time…
today was a very long day and it's the worst day of my entire JUNIOR year…

MARKETING defense in the morning and OPMAN defense in the afternoon…
Didn't sleep at all the night before and now… well
Sleep is just so cunning and so slippery,
I can't seem to take hold of it…

I guess there are a lot of things I just can't seem to take control of…
From my schedule to my reactions and to sleeping habits!!!
I'm not complaining though…
CONTROL is just so "OUT THERE"

Happy Birthday MOM…

2008-03-13T00:39:00.001+08:00

I love SEASIDE… the food is great, the ambience is precious… the people are fantastic… what more can I ask for.. Happy BIRTHDAY MOM!!!!

I miss you…

2008-03-13T00:33:00.001+08:00

I missed you!!!

I long for a space of mine

A space bounded by my future

I need not know who I am

I need not know who I'll be

I need not know who I was

I will be in debt of my NOW

But will seek by Tomorrow

My YESTERDAY will hide

All that my heart desired

A space caged in its own right

I will miss you all the days of my life…

HELLO…

Not too Long Ago…

2007-09-03T23:06:00.001+08:00

It's been so long since I've written an entry.

Time really fly by so fast!! September is starting and Semestral breaks are near. These past few months have been so stressful and frustrating. So many decisions to make in such a short time, a lot of obstacles around every corner, and so many things to do in such a short time… I wish that was all. Well, ranting about it won't really make a difference.

I guess I have to get back to my stressful life, along with all the people as stressed as me…

R Lasting Memories…

2007-07-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

It's been a month now since my first day as a junior. So far, junior year does not seem so bad at all. It's not a piece of cake but it's not totally hopeless either. I really like the line- up of my Profs this semester. Not that I like them all but I guess I'll manage. At least my original schedule of 1:30-9 is history… Yes, 7 ½ hours of class without BREAKS!!! Although I can rant all night with the current situation of my junior year which I'm not!!

I will however point out things that I'll miss from my sophomore and freshmen year:

"R" Septic Tank…
"R" favorite Mama Shawarma... *oh please come back...*
"R" Cranium battles!!
"R" trip to Nestle Creamery…
"R" lunch @ Flaming Wings
"R" Pizza Party @ ma'am Chi Chi's house
"R" Eurostar adventure
"R" Gateway getaways
"R" Moth man Prophecies…
"R" Alabang overnights
"R" Manangs Sessions
"R" J-Bird…. *Pumayat na kaya siya?*
"R" Law 11--- Sir Santiago
"R" Breakfast @ pancake house…
"R" Sessions @ Cantina
"R" Premiere team…
"R" ORSEM
"R" INTACT
"R" Crocodile Grill party
"R" tambay @ J's
"R" Caf- up moments
"R" inuman sessions…
"R" photo sessions…
"R" Boob Bangga
"R" half smile queen
"R" debuts
"R" Jollibee Lamon sessions
"R" Sir Joel tutorials
"R" McDonalds Breakfast meetings
"R" Sweet Inspirations lunch out…
"R" LS field Trip and obscene bus trip...
"R" Accounting nights!!
"R" Prince David memories…
"R" Hemady st. pig out!!!
"R" law fashion show
"R" Valle Verde free dinners…
"R" movie gimmicks...
"R" math with Girlie…
"R" Taga- gubats
"R" karaoke
"R" dance dance revolutions
"R" CTC 305 classroom
"R" Mateo "study times"
"R" first "I have Never" (chicken Bacolod)
"R" Issues 1, 2, 3, 4, & 5
"R" Lovers
"R" Iron Chefs
"R" Mang Jose adventures
"R" paintball
"R" Song--- "Escape by Enrique Iglesias"

R my home, my friend, my family, forever with us. There, here, now, tomorrow, and forever … Guys: "Once an R Forever an R"…

Finding Houdini…

2007-07-16T17:43:00.001+08:00

There are a lot of things that we use/do to hide from the people around us.

Façade of happiness, hiding the thousand tears of a broken heart.
A mask, to hide our inner self which we hide for fear of disappointments.
Pride, to hide our weaknesses and try to comfort our own insecurities.
Disabilities, to explain our failures in life.
Blame, to reassure our decisions and principles.
Illness, to excuse us from our laziness and lack of discipline.
Escape, to shield us from our fears.
Love, to break out of our loneliness.
Success, to distract us from our own discontentment.
Vices, to elude our deepest problems that haunt us in our life.
Rebel, to break free from society's clutches and Norms.
Ignore, to avoid the existence of possible disappointments and problems.
Detached, to evade the fear of getting hurt….. Again….
Mediocre, the content of being average and never taking responsibility.
Sarcasm, to dodge our own faults and mistakes.
Indifferent, the conceited side of ourselves unable to accept others and outside help.
Arrogance, the unwillingness to learn and experience.
Lie, a thin door for an escape to an unwanted situation.
Wealth, to make up for our unfortunate past and to be able to reach our distant future.
Fear, the reaction of ourselves unable to fathom the unknown.

We tend to shrink in fear not really knowing what awaits us after our next move. Life is an unfinished chess game constantly in need of our decisions. We ignore the possibility of success and failure to emphasize our own free will. These situations presented to us, decides whether we fall or stand up. In the end, knowing who we truly are and thus finding peace. *sigh*

Fiction by Goo Goo Dolls

2007-07-15T23:08:00.001+08:00

I wander through fiction
To look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
And I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

Hold on before it's too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall, just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

And the risk that might break you
Is the one that would say:
A life you don't live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real 'til it's gone

Hold on before it's too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall, just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it
And love 'til you feel it
It's all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real 'til it's gone

Hold on before it's too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall, just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

Hold on before it's too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall, just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

It's all that we need in our lives It's all that I need in my life

*this song hit me when I heard it.. Download the song and look at the lyrics and you'll see why…

Midnight recollections…

2007-07-15T01:54:00.001+08:00

Another wasted Saturday…

Saturdays, a break, a time needed and most of all a time that is mine. I really didn't appreciate Saturdays back when I was in high school. The reason behind it was because I really did not have a Saturday to cherish. Unlike other schools who have Saturdays as a no school day. We all have Saturday classes back then and it was one of the longest days of our school days. So, all of us rather did not have any TGIF (thank God It's Friday) "NIGHTS". Times when usually all high school student will have a break from school and go out partying all night and resting on Saturday.

Well it really did not bother me at all for the following reasons:

I didn't know of TGIF nights back then. *hmmm*
Most of my batch mates and friends didn't know it either. *I guess*
Normal family and Friends night outs were either on a Wednesday, Thursday afternoon, Saturday night or Sunday.
Chinese tests on Friday, which means no sleep for the crammers the night before and so Friday nights, are spent for sleeping and rest.
I wouldn't be allowed to go out anyway. * unless….*

Looking back, I think it didn't matter at all. This was probably the reason why almost all of my friends love to go to movies. It's because we usually go out on Wednesdays when movies are usually first released. Movie houses wouldn't be jumped packed because the ones who were watching were either "yuppies", call center agents and some couples.

I miss those nights. Actually, I miss my friends….

then there was the beginning.....

2007-07-14T21:45:00.001+08:00

Wow!! two online journal accounts in a week... well, I guess I'll be using this more for the reason that I can directly send in entries from MS Word. Word 2007 ROCKS!!!! ( i just read my message and i Sound really geeky!!!) oh well, I guess I do in some level!!!

I guess this is it for my first entry... I promise more interesting and I guess deeper entries in the future...

As for my future self: " Hi!!" If I know myself well, I'll be reading this a year after and will be laughing so hard...!! haha... For now I guess goodbye and till next time..